Well the restless bug is back.  We want to move, to run away.  It's probably to do with the time of year, the beginning of the bad season, that worry builds and we just want to get away.  Plus for us, we just like to move alot.  But this place is so good, its small yes, but its cheap and we can live alone.  So we don't want to move, to find somewhere new.  So to get over that need to move we start shifting stuff around the house.  Not an easy task when you don't have a hell of a lot of room.  But we have shifted the whole bed area around.  Hopefully that will calm that "lets shift" need.  I personally like this new setup.  We tried it once before but there was a draft from under the window.  We are hoping with the pull down blind and the curtains that this time it won't give us that creak in the neck.  And shifting has Celi all worked up, she needs to clean, is getting rather antsy about it all.  So she will probably be out all week giving the house a spring clean.  Ok the house needs it but I don't know if I want to spend all that time at it.  Oh well, I suppose I can't complain, I get enough time to do what I want.

Am trying to educate my neighbour about what it means to be multiple.  She comes over a lot lately and hiding it, pretending to be one, in my own house is annoying.  So maybe if we can give her enough information she will understand it and in turn we will feel a little more comfortable.  I think someone wrote yesterday that it is hard losing those friends that readily accepted and understood it.  I know I miss that, someone that recognises me, treats me as someone separate, not Kat, not Shire, but me.  I was one of the people that would go back, because there was the place to be me fully.  I wish I could go back again.  But I understand why we can't and anyway, Melanie would kick my arse if I did.  It just sucks you know, having to pretend, having to deal with everyone as if I am someone else.  We have all been wondering why this has become such an issue lately.  I think it's just time, others say it's because we are really lonely right now and that is reminding us of how even with people we feel on our own, outside of the others.  Then there's that whole issue of the people that know us not putting any effort into seeing us as individuals.  They don't they just seem to want us to be the image of Shire that they know, and that differs depending on the person we are with.  Maybe our neighbour will deal with it.  I don't know.  Its funny but there have been a few conversations with other multiples recently that have made us wonder if we are crazy for thinking people should understand that we are all different people.  They seem to think each is totally connected and the same.  But as E says, maybe that's because we have done too much work in only showing that.  Well that's changing and if others can't deal with it, then we will start losing contact with them again.